sometimes my mind wanders to these remissive regretful states.
today is one of those days where i wish i was somewhere else,

anywhere else.

Wanting the world to leave me alone, stop asking questions and let me fade into oblivion.
Wishing i wasn't so confused

that he was different and i was content.

that my nails didn't chip a day after i painted them.

and that i could know what this unattainable state of mind known as happiness feels like.

falling faster down the rabbit hole... i'm lost.

tell me what to do.