and so it goes...

The heart clashes with the mind.
you feel you know what you should do... and that's usually not what you want to do or think you're capable of doing.
its confusing. confronting and has the ability to annihilate your strength to function;
to wake up and breathe and remember that everything is going to be okay.
because you're too busy creating ideas that tell you its not.

The battle between my heart and head rages and I'm left unavailable and incompetent.
Where my head longs to find solace in my pillow and stay there until I'm forgotten by the world.
the ever so appealing thoughts of running away and starting fresh begin to linger for far too long and visit much too frequently.

the dilemma lies in the fact that it's usually impossible to tell which one to listen to.

the heart can lead you to mysterious, passionate and blissful places.
but it's also naive, unprotected and dangerous.
and the mind bears strength and experience that has the ability to take you to extraordinary heights and change your world for the better.... or simply end up secluded and lifeless.

a decision of considerable importance,
impacting ramifications,
and the potential to alter the course of our lives.....

and the body just dies.

loss of oxygen and lethargy take over.
and in the end - they both fails us.

it just becomes too much to handle and we retreat to our seclusion and find solace in the darkness.